I let a book control me.
I don't have a mind of my own.
I let things happen, instead of making things happen.
I am fickle minded.
I end up hurting others more than i wanted to.

While waiting, I let someone good slipped by.
Only to realise later on what i'm missing.
But what can i do ?
I only feel comfortable with you.
And the feelings, they come back so easily.
I just wished feelings can be controlled.

I am having thoughts of starting life all over.
Move to somewhere far away from singapore,
Somewhere which won't hold any memories of him.
It's hard to let go from where I am now.
Tv shows, advertisements, places around me.
All reminds me of him.
It may be good memories, but it brings pain to the heart.
If only i didn't have the bond, and can take as long break as i want to, to get over this period with no other burden.

He has been missing in action from msn for a week.
It makes me wonder what he's been up to.
I can't deny that I do miss him, a lot.
Neither can i deny that I don't wish to forget him totally.
Like I told a friend.
I won't want to snatch him away from the girl.
I'd just want him to know that I'm still here, still the same girl, if he should change his mind.

My entry is a contradiction.
Ugh ! I let him mess with my mind too much.